Some thoughts on Valentine's Day :-)

It's Valentine's Day and I got 3 candies from a boy. Isn't it exciting! I got myself a Valentine... It's just that this boy is just about 4 ft tall and he's way younger than me. Hahaha. :-)

This morning I asked my Kindergarten students to watch a video about perseverance. As they were going in to the computer room (which we also use as a video room), I quickly reminded them that they were to get a chair right away and sit quietly while I prepare some stuff. While most of the kids said 'yes' without a fuss, I noticed a kid not paying attention to what I was saying as he was busy getting something out of his pocket. I was about to reprimand him for not paying attention when he suddenly reached out his hand and said, "for you".

I was speechless for a moment 'cause I saw in his right hand some of the candies that he got from the Heart Pinata. I was teary-eyed seeing that I was the recipient of such selfless giving, and to think that I was just 1 second away from reprimanding him. I felt like I didn't deserve it. He was supposed to keep all of it for himself just like what any other kid would normally do. But then he decided to give some of it to me. It was just so sweet. :-D

I was then reminded of God's love for me. Every day he shows me how much he loves me but then I'm too busy to notice. I'm so preoccupied with a lot of things that I deem to be much more important than intimacy with Him. I'm too busy to hear Him telling me how much He loves me, too busy to see that He has given everything to me.

Oh that I would always see

God's great love for me.

In big things or in small,

I will always listen when He calls.

Oh that I would always be His friend,

and run with Him 'til the end.

O how I love you, Lord!

Intimacy with God

(Grade 2 students praying)

God has been so patient with me. I've been telling Him that I will spend more time with Him in devotional prayer but I keep on delaying. I always say that I will do it tomorrow. But the tomorrows were just piling up and I still haven't fulfilled my promise to him.

As a teacher, I emphatically tell my students that they have to learn to pray and read the Bible on a daily basis. One day as I was getting ready for class, I just felt so empty. It was like all my strength was sucked out of me. I saw a picture of me teaching and as I was talking 'something' was pulling things out of my spirit. Then I realized that every time I teach, there is something that I give away in the spiritual. I remember when I was in college a pastor in my church said, "you can't give what you don't have". I knew that I just had to repent. I felt so tired and it was all because I kept on giving when there was very little in me. I was so busy looking for ways to serve Him when all He wanted was for me to seek intimacy with Him.

I praise God for His great mercy. 'Though I am unfaithful, He's still faithful. I fail Him many times but He patiently waits for me to rise up and start anew.

The prayer below is from Passion for Jesus by Mike Bickle. I made it to be my personal prayer as I long to know Him intimately.

O Lord, we have seen just a little bit of Your splendor and majesty. The beauty of who You are and what You do is capturing our hearts like a lovely, irresistible fragrance. From this point on I want my life to be one unbroken journey of progression in holy passion. Draw me, Lord. Draw me to your glorious self. I don't want to be at a distance. I want you, no matter what it costs me. Draw me Jesus, and I will run after you! Amen!